Weekly Music: July Mix

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I’m in such a crazed adjustment period right now with work, so there hasn’t been a ton of time for even my beloved weekly music posts! But the past week I caught up on music and went through my Shazam list (so many WHAT IS THIS SONG?! moments in my life, what a wonderful technology) and KCRW set lists and saved albums on Spotify and made a little July playlist. Most are newish, most I’ve talked about here, but a few are things I’d looked up that were older, some excitement over the Nick Cave show we’re going to on Friday tossed in there. Because it’s pretty random I made it an hour-long flow of toe-tapping to winding down to almost lullaby-like.

Happy July! How is it July, can someone tell me?

1. Whocean Yesway
2. Could I Be Sylvan Esso
3. Can’t Do Without You Caribou
4. High Road Cults
5. Rising Son Takuya Kuroda
6. Master Pretender First Aid Kit
7. Just One Of The Guys Jenny Lewis
8. Hi Warpaint
9. Nothing Will Change Sharon Van Etten
10. We No Who U R Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds
11. San Fran Moses Sumney

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Weekly Music

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I think we’re at the tail end of all the crazy spring of new album releases so I don’t have any new music to share, but the ladies of First Aid Kit made this awesome Spotify road trip playlist for Nylon‘s blog that I’m super into. And on that note, I wasn’t sure at first how I felt about their new album, but it’s finally obsessively grown on me. It’s a sad break up album, but I’m a huge sucker for those regardless of my mood, and they just hit it so well. I don’t think it’s quite as good as the last album if I had to compare the two as a whole, but it’s still fantastic. You can read about their choices for the mixtape here.

For those of you who can’t use Spotify, here’s the tracklist to make your own:

“Here I Am” by Adam Green and Binki Shapiro
“Diamond Day” by Vashtie Bunyan
“Song for Zula” by Phosphorescent
“”The Swimming Song” by Loudon Wainwright III
“”America” by Simon and Garfunkel
“I Dream a Highway” by Gillian Welch
“I’ve Been Everywhere” by Johnny Cash
“Perfect Day” by Lou Reed
“I Feel Just Like a Child” by Devendra Banhart
“Margins” by Amason

And as a side note, thank you all SO much for your response to my work post on Monday. I am so incredibly swamped right now I don’t have time to reply to everyone, but as always, the kind responses to personal posts like that remind me why I keep this ol’ blog up. I love you guys.

Making It Happen, Part Two

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HI GUYS! Sorry for disappearing. Life is very…full right now. As most of you know thanks to social media and my inability to blog in a timely manner, last week was my first week at my new job as the senior graphic designer at Karen Kimmel Studios. Telling people I’m moving from freelance to a full time job has elicited a wide variety of surprised faces and the face I dread the most – that twinkle of “oh, freelancing was going terrible for you” look in some eyes. Freelancing full time certainly was not lucrative – I made almost half what I made at my job before I went freelance – but I had expected and prepared for that, and by owning your own business in an expensive city standards, I was doing well. I could have kept on chugging along at the rate I was going for a few more years. We are comfortable and lucky, but I have no retirement plan, my insurance plan doubled in price this year, and the future felt so uncertain. But I could have dealt with that, I’m crafty. But what started to tug at me was this lack of purpose and focus. I thought freelancing meant only taking the jobs you want to take on – and you can certainly do that, unless you want to live somewhat comfortably. I missed the sense of community in working for a company that you want to better, I missed coworkers, I missed leaving the house, I missed structure. Having a studio helped briefly, and lord knows Katie helped me immensely with idea bouncing and keeping me company, but none of it was quite right. It wasn’t ever terrible – don’t get me wrong – it just didn’t feel right.

One day I had a complete meltdown that I didn’t know what the hell I was doing and was tired of my financial and mental future, when Will told me: “look for a job”. This is a really similar conversation to ours five years ago when he told me to find a hobby and I ended up starting my jewelry line. I am stubborn and don’t like being told what to do, so I immediately told him that was out of the question – I loved freelancing and making my own schedule, and besides, we just got a damn dog. A high energy, needs lots of attention dog. He told me that I didn’t seem to love freelancing, making your own schedule is a luxury we can’t always have, and the dog was not allowed to dictate our lives like that. People with jobs have dogs. I was still grumpy about it, but eventually looked and came across this listing. It sounded perfect, it was a company I knew and loved, I was terrified. I was fairly certain I was qualified and somewhat confident I was perfect for it and it for me, but did I want this? I did so much soul searching. Like, so. much. soul. searching.

During all this soul searching I came to realize a few things that I think may resonate with some of you. This creative field world we live in – this blogging as a career, self-made Etsy supposed successes, follow your bliss mentality world – it can create a mentality that full time jobs are lame. That we should all be aspiring to working for ourselves and owning our own businesses. Joanna put it really nicely in her post about going back to full-time employment: I feel like it’s really popular right now to proclaim ‘yay freelancing,’ but when it comes down to it, it’s not for everyone. And I’m not saying that it’s not for me, because I actually think that someday in the future I will probably give it a go again, I’m just saying that it’s not the greatest creative achievement and not the only destination your creative path can lead to. I see a lot of people leave their jobs when they’re not ready for the leap, and a lot of people burn out quickly because of that. A handful of years ago there was such a rush of everyone quitting their jobs to live their dreams, but dreams change. Goals need to grow and shift, and some of us succeed in different ways. I’m starting to feel a little rumbling lately from some fellow freelancers that they’ve been thinking more about full time jobs, but I think a lot of people have a bit of an internal and external hurdle of unnecessary shame to overcome. Of knowing that so many people are not sharing their self-run business despair and pain, that working for someone else doesn’t have to equal a squashing of creative energy or personal growth, that nothing is forever.

I left a brainstorm last week at work feeling high. Buzzing with excitement over being around such awesome creative people doing awesome creative things. And that’s all it comes down to, and I couldn’t be more excited about the future and what it may hold. Sure, I’m not going to lie, it’s hard going from working on my own time for three years to being somewhere for a set number of hours everyday, but structure is good for me and I will adjust. Besides, I was starting to hold way too many one-way conversations with my pets.